The Starr Adversary

        Say I'm fine when I'm silent Pretend it's okay when I feel the rain And it feels so sweet Even if a your gone My smile stays So you can say that I'm not okay When I'm not torn apart And your all alone With your back against a wall Because you see me and you want to cry Pour your feelings out  Because you see that I'm happier on my own With you at my side I know you can't help the feeling  When you see me out alone I know that your heart breaks So you let the tears ignite As you cry Cry,cry,cry Because I'm no longer yours You cry Cry,cry,cry And thinking what the hell did you do When I'm in another's hands You know your face has faded away And I've forgotten about the places we've ever been So you try to take one step at a time Only to find that you can hear your own heartbeat As you cry Cry,cry,cry Because you know that I'm not coming back Into your arms when I'm cold Fighting your pride y

You pretend like everything is perfect Painting on a plastic smile, never looking anyone in the eyes Holding on to something that doesn't exist Slammed against a wall , you start to break With no one in your corner Your mother says that you'll never make it While your father only calls you when you're worth his time Saying that he'll be home soon But he's never there You're sinking into a path of nothings While everyone stares at you and only see your smile Yeah , you're living a lie Without someone to talk to No one to look to So you get lost in your thoughts Pretending like it's all okay When you're slowly dying inside So you start to put up your walls Because you're afraid to let anyone​ see you cry You're not okay You have to find a way to break free Because you're not okay No matter how much you look into the dark for answers Your never going to be okay So you shut out the world And pretend like it's goin

You made me smile ,said that I was worth while Told me that you'd always be by my side Then you promised that you'd always be my best friend Until the day that I told you how I felt , hoping that you'd tell me that you felt the same But all I got in return was a misread friend request Telling me that this was only a crush Something to make me blush Something that would teach about love All it ever was ,  was a crush And sure I hear you telling your friends that you feel the same When all I feel for you now is a deep friendship When I tell you that you pretend that you're heartbroken Saying that we were never friends Because of my crush

you said that i walked away but you only ever pushed me away saying that you didn't want you didn't want to get hurt but all you ever did was hurt me beating me up with your words only to leave me screaming in pain begging you please, to stop you me in my tear filled eyes and say that it's all a game ad smile as you see me slowly crumble breaking underneath the weight of your words you know that i've reached my breaking point because as i look up at you without a tear left to cry i can tell by the fear that your eyes hold watching me slowly as i pack up and leave waiting for the moment when i say that this was all just a joke but i'm not going to give you the satisfaction of holding me in your arms because you don't deserve me and i don't deserve to fell this type of pain

Maybe it's all wrong Maybe it's all right Drive me up a wall Then let me fall Say that you love me ,then you push me away Telling me the things that you know that I want to hear Saying the sweet nothings you know that I think are real Only to look away from me bitter from the taste of love Saying that it's nothing , but you never look at  me  anymore Instead staring into oblivion as you say that you're only mine But you always are gone on late nights, saying that some guy picked a fight No knowing that I see the lipstick stain on your shirt Telling me that you weren't where you said you were You with her , saying bittersweet nothings That will eventually turn into bittersweet lies As you look away when you say that you love her And ca never meet her eyes when you lie about where you were

Don't speak , I need you to hear the sound of my heart Listen up, I'm confessing to feelings that I've never known before You've got my heart So tell me  that you won't tear it apart I know that you've , never noticed me before